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1st February 2010 ( Endinq Frendship )
Monday, February 1, 2010  HEYLOW HEYLOW WHORLD WIDE WHORLD !! ((: Mai here ((: sorry fer nt postinq last few daes . been too busy with ncc n stuffs . thanksx t airahh fer th update ((: && yahh , freestyle competition is nxt two wks , & jyeahh , im damn stress abud it . hopee tht evs ncc gerls could mke it t semi-final ths tymm . && yahh , my class deco was suxs ! cnt describe . i criously gve up with my class . ths is th worst class i ever met in my entire lyfe n th ferst class tht i goin t gve up on . been absent th past few daes , hiqh fever n heard many fiqhtinq goinq on in class ]: even teacher n my classmates was lyk callinq back up ! wth ! && nw i nid t write report abud th fiqht ?! wen im nt even in sch . aiyoo . LOTX of prob been strikinq mie ths past wks . i juxs cnt tke it anymre . && yahh bdae cuminq bt lyfe seems t b suxs ! nt in th mood t clbrt bdae ths yr . all th plan tht i mke earlier , im goinq t cancel . so t huever tht makinq plans , juxs bck off . im nt interested in goinq or hvinq any fun on my bdae ths yr . - been stressinq & tearsinqx over those probs th past few daes . all i wish fer my bdae is those stff settle (x && yeahh , juxs dunnoe why my tearsx rolled dwn wen i slack with ncc gerls juxs nw . pathetic uhq mai ! aiyoo . haishhsx . ive been hidinq ths a few wks n shudnt reveal those feelinq of anger , sad n confused t anyone bt jusx nw suddenly ths stupid tearsx rolled dwn wen hajar talk abud those stff . erm , im still hvinq fever & bloq nt goin t b update as recent ayttes ? sorry readers .. && yeahh t dhemm , nvm lawr . i tink u guys juxs hve fun kaeysx ? u guys shud knw my reason . i wont want t explain muchh , coxs u guys wont understand those feelinqs . & remember tht i wont forget u guys lawr . wtv it is , memories tht i spend with all of u was th best n awesome tymm (x  Do you know what it feels like to be left behind ? Losing everyone around you in such little time. I try not to worry since they're left in the past but it's hard going through life knowing nothing ever lasts . It's hard to hide behind this frown , When on the inside you're on the verge of a breakdown . I've lost everyone that meant the world to me . All I have left of them are these memories . You have no idea how badly I want them back . But they've left me in the past which was their plan of attack . The pain of losing them will never go away . I'm tired of feeling like this everyday . I feel like I no longer belong . I fake my happiness to show nothing's wrong . - poemx dedicated fer ''dhem'' . ( sorry if im th caused & yahh i knw tht those arguements n misunderstandinq is all strted by mie . so yahh , i tink i nid t tke my steps bck n juxs let u go eventhough its hrd. ) - t class , ( im juxs gve up with u guys . u guys were th ferst class tht i gve up on . is ths th spirit tht a class shud hve ? & all u guys knw is fightinq n mkinq prob . wats wrnq with u guys ? nt maturee enough ? frm nw on , im mkinq my dcision of steppinq dwn . wtv tht u guys tink gud fer u , juxs do it kay ? i dunt want t involve. ) - t herr , ( u expect us t understand ur condition ? yahh , hw abud th others gerls tht hve medical condition too . u give us lotx of stupid n unreasonable reason abud nt cuminq dwn t traininq bt we gve u face n nw u sayinq tht we dunt understand ur situation ? i dunt want t scold n shout t u , bt it seems tht ure askinq for it . i juxs cnt stand with ur attitude . go n tink lawr babe . i dunt want t talk much with u . it will juxs mke mie pissed off , so tink throughly. - t my dearest brother , i miss u t th maxx ! i hate ths year bdae . i feel crious bored clbrtinq my 15 bdae without u . nt only u bt my dearest frenx too . i miss those jokes n laughter . i miss those bdae gifts n th bdae wish tht u gve mie . i juxs want my bdae t b clbrated with u . mum said i goinq t visit u on my bdae , & yahh i surely cry . hehx . hopee ure fine there . miss u ONE & ONLY BROTHER LUVED ! (x '' Woke up with tearsx in my eyes , i keep wonderinq why ? And i realize ... That's because i'm missinq a nice and true friend lyke dhem ]: '' - gonna end my post here (: && t her thanks fer callinq mie slut n maki mie all tht . hate mie all u want kaeysx ? i dunt cre anymre (x && yeahh , wanna tell u guys ths . please dunt mke or plan anytinq fer my bdae . i wont hve th mood t clbrt n hve funn . 9 mre daes :-( ; Maii xD Labels: lettinq go eventhough its hard |
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